We went back to the dr. last week. We are no longer pregnant. I have cried everyday for a week. We went back today, had an Ultrasound, and cervix scrap..ewww, ugh. I don't know what to say except that I had a feeling something bad was going to happen. They drew blood today, to hopefully figure something out. What if my deepest darkest fears are true and I can't have babies?
I'm have serious religious issues over this. I don't know what to say. I had a feeling something was wrong, prayed about it, pleaded with God, asked him to fix it. He didn't. He let another one of my babies die. And for what? I have nothing to say but my Faith is fading. He has been doing this to me since I was 7 years old. 20 years of misery.
Maybe its me, I did something.
I'm have serious religious issues over this. I don't know what to say. I had a feeling something was wrong, prayed about it, pleaded with God, asked him to fix it. He didn't. He let another one of my babies die. And for what? I have nothing to say but my Faith is fading. He has been doing this to me since I was 7 years old. 20 years of misery.
Maybe its me, I did something.
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