I'm sorry for not writing very often, I know it would make me feel so much better to just get it out. But, I spend too much other time doing other things, and can never remember or feel like doing it. I have an update for you.

I can't seem to get my dates right, I'm not sure what I've said so I got to investigating this earlier and finally decided this: I wrote them down but just found the notebook today...

1st miscarriage:
Bleeding started on Dec 20 and lasted until Jan 6th. That's 17 days. I then started a period Jan 28th and got a period every 28th day of the month until May, which was my last period.

2nd miscarriage is what I'm confused about, and I shouldn't be because its happened so recent.
According to appointment cards I went to the Dr. July 26th which was my first prenatal appointment. I blogged about this appointment. (see below) The heartbeat wasn't what the Dr. wanted it to be so we went back 2 weeks later, which was Aug 10. Aug 10th we were told that there was nothng left in the sac, and there wasn't a heartbeat. She put me on Misoprostol and I had it filled on the 11th, started it on the 12. The bleeding started on that day. So, right now I have been bleeding for 21 days. I had a follow-up appointment on the 17th. On the 17th I had blood drawn, not exactly sure all what for, I should have had someone write it down for me, but didn't so, here we are now. I called the clinic yesterday, and asked a nurse to tell Dr. Thaxton I wanted the results of my blood work. She said ok, like no big thing and said she would pass the message. I called back today, because I never received a call yesterday..and my sister told me to call everyday until I got an answer. Anyway, I talked to a nurse and she told me Dr. Thaxton went on maternity leave. Ok that's fine but why wasn't I told this yesterday?... I asked her if she could tell me my results, she looked at my chart and told me the two tests were fine, Lupas hasn't come back. I asked what the two tests were that came back fine, she said ADA? and then something I can't remember. Lupas had to be sent to Virginia so it would be a few more days for that one. I then told her I thought they drew more blood than just 3 tests, Dr. Thaxton wrote down a lot for the phlebotomist to draw, it took like 10 minutes. The nurse I talked to then told me she would look on the computer, she did. Got back on the phone and asked how my bleeding is today, I told her heavy and then said I need to see someone. She said she would contact the Dr. on call and then get back to me. About 20 minutes later, she called back and told me I would need to come in tomorrow. I said ok, I have an appointment at 1:15 with Dr. Gunter.

So, that is that. I have had cramping two nights in a row, last night and I have some now as I'm typing this. TMI ALERT: I sat on the toilet tonight and I thought my insides were falling out. I'm hurting right now, but not enough for a trip to the ER or anything like that. I just want the bleeding to stop.

While thinking long and hard about my conversation with the nurse this morning, the more and more worried I'm getting about what she saw on the computer to make her think I needed to see someone...hmm? Maybe its just my mind...

I have joined some support groups on Babycenter.com. I thought they were helping but I'm just getting more and more upset, some people that have miscarried very close to mine have already started a peiod. How can this be because I haven't even stopping original miscarriage blood yet. Some of them had a D&C, so maybe that's why they are already done, but it sure isn't helping!

Please pray for me.

On another note: I have started going to church more. I went to both services on Sunday, and I signed up for a new 6 week study on the book of Daniel and the end of days. I was also invited to go to Zumba, they have it Monday and Thursday nights. I didn't go tonight, Michael wanted to go to the fair so we did. It was fun.

I guess that's if for tonight, Pray for my appointment tomorrow. We're going to M'boro after so it might be next week before I get you guys updated.